Video Game Ramen

Seriously, I am torn. I love and hate the new Naruto game.

Yesterday was interesting. Work went swell.

After work I got some shopping done and then hung out with Sara. I had a drink and a blunt. We chilled and discussed random ass shit. Joe swung by and needed some ice. We gave it to him then swung by his place. Smoked a little and watched part of Tropic Thunder. That movie is funny.

Eventually we had to come back. Sara had fallen asleep at Joe's. She then fell asleep on my bed. It was kinda awkward. I played some NBA Jam (the computer fucking cheats, every time). Eventually the night wrapped down. Around 2am I asked Sara to wake up so I could go to sleep.

This part of the night was an interesting interaction. It almost seemed like Sara really wanted to sleep with me in my bed (I don't know if it was sexual or not, but sleep none the less). I was hesitant. I like her, she's a chick. But... she had discussed how she used to be addicted to crack and other such things. Her current life situation seems to be far below optimal. Part of me wants to stay away from her and not get involved (I don't want anything to do with children, and she has a 7 month old kid, I don't want some huge responsibility). But part of me wants to be with her. It is a confusing set of things. I stood my ground and said that I would like to sleep in my bed. She left. Afterward I felt bad, and thought that I should I have let her stay. I don't know. I am so torn. If only she was cleaner, didn't have a child, or had a cleaner past... Fuck.

I txt'd Sara this morning, "thanks for coming over last night, it was a lot of fun. :)" and she responds with, "you don't have to lie to be my friend. I crashed twice dude. I feel like a lame ass." To which I respond, "ha. nah. its all good. shit happens. i forgive you. i am a pretty accepting person." She hasn't replied yet. I still don't know where I want this to go. I think I want a one night stand, but I don't know.

Oh well. I also sold 4 xanax. I ended up only being able to get 4 from Jimmy. The infinite supply was going to be unmarked, and unmarked pills are no good. On a funny side note, I almost lost 6 bucks on that deal. When I paid Jimmy for the pills and 2g of shrooms, I handed him 10 dollars too many. Half way home I realized this and called him back up. He gave me the extra ten back. He was trashed at the time, and I wasn't thinking straight. I am glad that Jimmy is so cool. I could hardly ask anyone else to do stuff like that.

Still can't find O's in town for less than $400. Jimmy said that I could go in on their next trip to Chi-town, but he didn't know when that would be. Probably this next weekend I will get another O.

The dishes are a mess. It looks like a lot, but isn't, but I still don't want to clean them. Maybe tonight.